The start of covid affected many lives all over the world. Some lost their source of incomes, others still struggle with the after effects of the covid 19 virus and many have lost loved ones.....
I’ve been wanting to put all the thoughts that run through my mind everyday onto paper to help me with the grief that we had to go through in this past year but also so that I may be a beacon of hope to some that are in a similar situation. I don’t know about you but whenever I meet anyone and they have experienced something similar and we talk about it ..... it makes you feel somewhat lighter afterward even though nothing has changed.
Our story started during the first wave when our beloved daddy.... a medical practitioner tested positive for covid. Even though my dad had lost quite a few patients to covid in the preceding weeks.... little did we know what was in store for us........my beloved dad lost his battle to covid after fighting for over 5 weeks in icu. These weeks were probably the most traumatic time of our lives.... not being able to see my dad everyday like we normally would visit our loved ones in hospital was the worst for me ...... I kept thinking what must be going through my dads head...... did my family just abandon me ????
It’s been 7 months now and not a day goes by that I don’t miss or think of my dad. There’s a beautiful memory in everything I do and see. He taught us life lessons that we will carry through our lives. We will make him proud.
There are moments when you feel the exact same pain piercing through your heart as the time you found out that your loved one has left this world. Some nights you lay awake staring out the window replaying all the events that led to your life changing event.
No it’s not an easy journey, we go on because we have to, our lives will never be the same and our hearts will forever be broken but we will take solace in the fact that our dad was a martyr. He served the community selflessly and left a legacy. He carved his name on our hearts and his patients hearts. But we know that God is looking after our dad and that he is in a better place. Now it’s our time to build on his legacy.
Today is my birthday and I celebrate it without you..... the first man I ever loved...
I wish I could hug you just one more time ......
I wish I could kiss you just one more time......
I am grateful for the years I got to spend with you.
Sometimes when we go through these emotions in life we tend to neglect our health and my plea to everyone of you reading this today is don’t neglect yourself and your health during trying times. Yes life throws these things at us but we have to fight it with the help and guidance of God, the Almighty. We should not neglect ourselves but rather take care of our bodies so that we can be an inspiration to others. Lots of love to all of you going through any difficulties.
